oh i guess i should probably say something now, huh?

Here's to easy French tests and studying for Sociology exams.

Last week ended well, with a Sunday at NewLife for once and a family outing that was fantastic. God continues to provide for DTS in ways that i don't expect, and i am amazed by the outpouring of resources and the willingness of the people in my life to contribute to this phase of my life. it's super humbling, and i don't quite know how to handle it.

i'll be back at the Young Adult's group tonight, for the first time in about a month. Things have just been coming up! i'm glad to be returning. it is super weird to me that today is November 14th already. where is the time going?

super big shoutout to big brother #1! Happy birthday Josiah! see you next week!

ok back to whatever i was talking about.

i had an interesting thought about evolution today. i was sitting in Psych class, and we were discussing Freud's psychoanalytic theory about gender socialization and how males and females come to be male and female. Then we talked about an evolutionary theory, which mentioned that species and genders over millions of years develop the characteristics necessary for survival of the species, for passing along the genes. it said that the male birds with the brightest feathers get the girl birds, and pass on their bright feather genes to the next generation. and the girl birds that don't have parasites can pass on their non-parasytic genese to the next generation. and voila! here are all these birds.

ok the point is: evolutionary psychology assumes that the species on the earth live for the sole purpose of reproduction. it seems that all of the evolutionary theories focus on the ability of the species to pass on the necessary characteristics for the furtherance of the society. While biological reproduction is a viable facet of every species' existence, it seems to me that the quality of life and the joy of living is widely ignored and not mentioned in these theories. maybe because they feel so much time has passed that it's easier to talk in terms of various generations without mentioning much more than their reproduction and subsequent death. do we live to make babies and then die? what kind of a life is that?! pretty lame, if you ask me.

Evolutionary theories give us no purpose because they hold no purposeful aim other than to exist and propagate the next generation. what a lot they miss by holding these tenents! they cannot ignore that their lives contain more than the acts necessary for reproduction. in life there is pain, sadness, joy, beauty, food, love, color, it's LIFE! my thought is that evolution has taken the life out of living.

later in class we watched a movie about PTSD, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. it was a hard video to watch. there was a story about a girl who was molested by 5 people in her family, got pregnant at 9 and had a 5-month old baby who was promptly killed by the molesting father, then the next year at age 10 had a full-term son who was illegally given up for adoption. and now she is a mother and wife and is trying to deal with all of this junk from her past, things that people should NEVER have to think about, let alone walk through as 9 year olds. i hate the fact that other members of my species are capable of such evil, probably because it means i'm not that far away from committing similar acts. if we are all part of the human race, what makes some people evil and some people good? inherently i am not any better than a child molester - because all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. we are indeed a messed up race and we are digging ourselves deeper.

sorry for the heavy words, i hope they made sense and inspired creative thoughts about the need to reach people for Christ. are we doing all we can?